hi ppl iie am back to post currently feeling super emo hai dunno why this feel day feel so emo yesterday went to my cousin's baby birthday party at east coast it was fun when we reach there me and my sis went tot the beach there and play first we play in the water it was cooling the sound of the waves is peaceful it made me forget abt the unhappiness in me for a while after iie when to the chalet to clean myself then iie went to take a walk iie went to the beach again thinking of all the problem iie am afraid to get into relationship again iie don wan to get hurt again everitime iie fall in love iie will get hurt badly iie use to belief in relationship but not now cos iie afraid to get hurt again i ask myself wat is love why does it bother me so much iie kept thinking of u wat u say isn't too late to regret now when u hav hurt her badly nth will be 4ever so don't take it for granted for wat u hav now don't wait until u regretted then u realise how good is she to u iie hate the feeling iie want to forget abt everything and start anew again can iie do it

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1:44 PM


hi ppl iie am back to post srry for not posting for so long is lyk nth for me to post omg teachers dae is comming still thinking whether going back to primary sch who cares ppl does change so maybe not going back don really wish to go back to primary sch damn fed up wif mylife recently nth goes well wif me wat iswrong wif me recently iie hate it iie hate tht feeling is ppl around me change or is it tht iie hav change does iiie really change into an ah lian iie don trust anyone my classmate told there is no one tht can be trusted even your besties only can trust yourself iie ask myself is tht true iie hate being betrayed being backstab who can understand me who not wat iie one iie slit myself jus cos iie can't solve my problem iie am srry to those who iie promise iie will never hurt myself again iie tried but iie really can't do it everitime iie think of it iiie can't help to hurt myself as ie help me to forget the pain iie been through iie can't to fall in luv wif hyme iie don dare to tel anyone iie am afraid to get hurt somemore he is in my classs iie used to lyk him but iie forget abt it iie don why recently iie hav fallen for him again iie am tired of crying everidae is no use it won't solve my problem iie felt tht iie wasn't tht same gurl lyk last time iie hav change into a bad gurl am iie iie don't noe maybe when iie can't think of way to made me bring hurt iie slit myself to forget abt it my frewn ask dosen't it hurt when iie slit myself iie sae it dosen't hurt as iie am already being hurt so much tht iie am used to it iie don go to church anymore iie felt tht there is no one in my heart my is only hurt tht iie being through iie don noe wat had happen to me maybe is the surrounding tht made me change iie don trust anyone not even my frewns iie am scared to being betrayed again no one noe tht iie lyk hyme iie feel lyk dying iie don wan to care anymore when iie am gd to u all u all don appericate and even take it for granted iie hate this me iie wan to go back to the past when nth had happen iie am always getting hurt iie ask myself why can ppl be happy and not me can iie be forgiven for my sin iie ask myself and iie still can't find the ans iie am confused who can help me iiie am tired of it how iie wish tht there is a place where no one noe me there is no trouble no problem for me to frustrated is there such a place iie so adicted to sliting tht iie can't stop hurting myself iie am srry iie didn't do wat iie promised am iie being forgiven who can tel me the ans.

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11:31 PM


hi ppl iie back to post srry for not posting for so long cos blogger hav problem so iie cannot post now iie am tired of all the problem in sch the problem made me feel veri tired and irrated tht iiedon wan to go sch anymore but if iie don go sch where can iie go iie hate to go home iie hate to be alone dose u noe wat is tht feeling lyk iie hate to go home alone when iie at home no one to tok to does u all noe how it feel lyk to be alone iie told myself to be strong not to cry but iie still can't do it why is tht so iie hate myself for telling so many lies in the end iie still get hurt iie hate to be single the feelings sucks everi time iie see a couple together iie so envious of them iie hate giving excuse for the things tht iie hav done but iie still get hurt in the end iie told myself not to slit myself but iie still do it why is tht so iie told myself not to do it but iie still do it iiehate getting hurt iie noe crying won't solve the problem but iie still cry iie don who to trust who to tell my problem everitime iie time frewns the next dae ppl will noe then u sae not your problem there is no one tht iie can trust is tht so iie am tired of crying everidae iie hate to put a fake smile to sch everidae iie ask myself where can't iie be happy everidae tht is my life there are times when iie felt lyk dying but will it solve the problem iie don noe iie wan to hav freedom iie wan to live the way tht iie wan iie hate ppl asking me nosense question sometimes iie think maybe iie still lyk hyme but iie jus don wan ppl to sae maybe iie was in the wrong iie dunno wat to do iie don dare to speak up for myself iie don dare to tell anyone wat happen iie don trust ppl iie only trust myself and ezebellae where are u bella iie hav lots of things to tell u iie really miss u so much willl my problem be solve one maybe or maybe not who noe but iie just felt veri fustrated of all the things iie am tired already iie wan to take a rest can iie

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10:51 AM


hi ppl iie am back to post jus finish editing my blog it had been screw up todae went for choir it was boring still thinking whether wan to quit anot maybe will be quiting it is bored to go choir everitime so bored de iie am tired of it iie am tired of everi of everithings iie hav enough of everithings frewns take me for granted iie am not for u to vent on iie had enough of your nonsense everi things also my fault say iie always never pei u all is u all left me alone first iie hate when u sae things tht hurt me u may tink tht iie don care but iie felt hurt iie may not sae it out yes my thinking is different frm u all but tht is the way iie think iie am alwys left behind iie am not your maid ask me come then iie come don wan then kick me aside iie hate being accused by u iie am not childish jus cos iie lyk those things there iie times iie felt lyk giving up but iie am so stupid by thinking u all will change sometimes iie think are u all really my frewns frewns are always there for u when u are down but u all are not iie tells u tings u tel other ppl without geting the facts right iie am really tired how iie wished iie can turn back time and change everitings iie thought tht iie can forget abt everythings but when iie hav forget abt everithings u all made me remember abt it by hurting me by your words and the ways u treat me iie still remember how u all treat me last time maybe we are really frm different worlds can iie really forget abt everithings and take it tht nth had happen iie still dunno yet iie am still thinking do u all take me as frewns or jus maid there is nobody tht understand wat iie want in the sch iie hate it iie can't stand it since iie was 9 years old iie was being bully but iie alway don care iie thought tht went to secondary school my life will change but it didn'tit become worst pri sch still hav best frewns when iie went to sec sch sec everithings change there is no one iie can tok to expect for bella but when she change sch there is no one to tok to wat iie heard from u all are complain iie was so navie to tink tht iie can change everytings iie was wrong iie am tired of u all iie don wan to see u all again but sch open iie still hav to see u all iie really wan to jus went to the beach and relax without any problem how iie wish tis is all dream wake up frm tis dream iie felt troubled and tired iie hate the way u all treat me my life change since tis year iie sae not to cut myself but iie still do it my heart is still hurt by u all iie hate u all iie told myself iie must be strong but iie still can't iie noe there are still ppl who cared abt me but there are not in the sch as me but iie don wan always to trouble them wat can iie do is cos of wat u all sae thats where in the camps my dae was lyk hell and u are blame me there also blame me but does the problem lie wif me or is wat u all sae is wat u all sae tht made me become the target iie sae one more time iie don lyk hym wawt they do iie don wan to noe and don wan to care iie hate hyme and u all how iie wish iie don noe u all iie should't came to tis sch at all iie am veri of all the problem tht u gave me e reeally hate u all to the core but when u all tok to me iie really can't pretend th iie dunno u all at cca is felt lonely at scgh also the same iie'm really tired and hate the ways my life is being live iie hate it iie really hate u all to the core

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6:30 PM


what is life without friends ,darlings and beloved so bored and sad without them.

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2:02 PM




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1:34 PM


iie am srry iie don,t mean to hurt u iie am srry iie still luv u no mood to write anymore.

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10:19 PM


hi ppl iie back to post 2dae is valentine dae iie wish u all a happy valentine day hmm ok leets talk abt 2dae went for service it is fun specially the drama damm funny iie laugh until lyk mad it is about relationship went for lunch at JP wif Andrea❤,Amelia❤,Hui Zhen❤ and Jinger❤ after tht went to walk around went in to mini toons and iie brought the hand phone decoration saw a lot of couple in the JP so envious chey went to MRT station saw my schoolmates and then went for service taken some photo and went home will post the photo later ok bb

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9:15 PM